If I was paranoid or self-centered, I would think her removing the photograph she posted might have something to do with me.
But more than likely, it expresses rage at her removal from
her duties in the Virgin Mayor’s town.
Still, it is possible, she could blame me for being
instrumental in putting her on the downward path.
since she posted the
poem on Saturday the poet has shown no activity since not even her daily
journal suggesting she may again be in crisis mode
already ready to bolt on Thursday after 2 weeks in recovery,
the poet must have felt utter humiliated.
you don't feel good
getting your mask ripped off at any time but so many negatives in a row she has
to feel at the very bottom and it will not be easy for her to rebuild herself
as she has in the past or face anyone without fear that's someone might try to
rip off her mask again
her silence is never good and you have to wonder what she is
thinking or planning to do
I thought she removed the photo before but was wrong but this
time she has
and since I have not checked on it in a while, I can't be
certain just when she removed it although I vaguely recall it was there only a
few days ago or so I thought I glimpsed it there among the thumbnails of past
photos
I'm not even certain why she posted a photo of the first
place since we have not spoken to each other in more than a year
but clearly this is a symbolic act whether to shed the
memory of me or the city in which she worked and this indicates some transition
I'm sure I'm among those she blames for her current
situation although I had nothing to do with her being fired or her father,
grandmother or whoever rejecting her pleas for help
then again all this is like reading tea leaves you can't
tell if it has anything whatsoever to do with me at all
but it did at least as late as last summer when she outted
of herself to her friends and family in fear that I might expose her-- after
which she made all those claims about her cancer cure and how the stalking of a
former fellow worker sent her back into a fit of her eating disorder
later she wrote a poem as a warning that ga the hometown
blogger might cause my downfall
at the time James sought it to get me fired
as far as I know she has yanked down two poems directed at
me. so it is possible she took down this photo of on my account as well
so it is possible she
connects all the threads and blames me although I'm not sure of that either
after all she seems to have lost it all and doesn't have farther to fall
a lot depends on just how much to heart she took with the
person in the poem said to her if the mask is ripped completely off she may not
be able to reinvent herself this time the next post if there is an exposed
should give clue as to what turn her life will take but I do not think it will
be a good turn no matter what
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