Sunday, June 23, 2024

Slipping through her fingers Oct. 9, 2013

 

A whole year later

I still bleed

seeing her as I saw her,

aware that nothing has changed.

I am the ghost in her closet

the beast beneath her bed,

serving in her royal court

 like a combined jester

and evil knight,

 the man to whom she can

point a finger at

so that her true knights

 might rise up to protect her,

a bit disappointed

she failed to dress up as queen,

now I know

 at what may well be our last moment

 in the same place at the same time,

 all remains the same,

 haunted, curious,

 a petulant frat boy

who can’t even rely on her for a drink,

 too clever and elusive for my own good,

the perceived foil-er of plans,

for all that I feel intensely sorry for her,

knowing how alone she feels

how in the end of days

it is not me that denies her

what she wants most in the world,

 but herself,

letting what she wanted

most slip through her fingers.


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