Wednesday, October 23, 2024

Freudian look at her fraying bridges april 10, 2014

  

I said Dr Thomas my Freudian professor from college would have had a field day with her dream sequence she posted two days ago

dreams according to Freud or an aspect of wish fulfillment and so her returning to our office clutching a news story suggests she wishes she could return after having been backstabbed by those he worked with in the Virgin mayors office

the fact that she says she won in this dream and confirmed the perception she viewed our office as a contest.

Still uncertain as to whom she won over, and whether I am the villain or someone else.

Her running through the office clutching news copy while people here ask what she's doing back furthers this idea that down deep she likely wishes she had not resigned, and her statement about having to meet a deadline may indicate her need for the structure and purpose she had while working with us

the wrong turn may also suggest as this as well suggest her involvement with the Virgin mayor was a mistake

the dream transcends into a rope ladder that is falling to pieces beneath her as she tries to make her way back to the boss's office as people complain how it sucks to work here. reflecting her connectivity to our male owner but also to the office gossips who generally have nothing good to say about working conditions here even though she has not worked here in 2 years

the wrinkled copy and her fear of being unacceptable raises her basic fear of inadequacy, of not being good enough as she pointed out in her resignation poem a year ago

the dream raises yet another question about how much she is being asked to do to keep this job, implying a lot about how she may have been exploited talent-wise as well as other ways

“I am letting myself be taken advantage of,” she writes. “But I have to do this.”

and has she suspected and predicted the bridge starts to fall apart beneath her as she tries to cross, perhaps indicating the frayed connection she has to our office and our owner and her desperation to rebuild it, tying together the strands of the former relationship (the image of her grabbing onto the remaining stable ropes with her legs is an extremely sexual one) but only to watch even these ropes disappear and she needs to grab the remaining strands before she plunges down three stories -- perhaps reflecting the office with the owner's office on the third floor or a rooftop retreat where she lives

the dream suggests a wish she could return although the intense difficulty she would encounter if she tried to retie Old connections and though she would likely succeed it would involve intense struggle and might not be worth the effort, partly because she was used and abused while working at our office and she would have to return to the extreme measures she had to take to keep the job in the first place

this wish fulfillment dream also flies in the face of personal history in the past when she abandoned an adventure she never went back and I suspect even as desperate as she seems to be to reestablish herself she will be seeking some new venue, forging  new bridges that won't fail as she tries to cross them

 


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