I said Dr Thomas my Freudian professor from college would
have had a field day with her dream sequence she posted two days ago
dreams according to Freud or an aspect of wish fulfillment
and so her returning to our office clutching a news story suggests she wishes
she could return after having been backstabbed by those he worked with in the
Virgin mayors office
the fact that she says she won in this dream and confirmed
the perception she viewed our office as a contest.
Still uncertain as to whom she won over, and whether I am
the villain or someone else.
Her running through the office clutching news copy while
people here ask what she's doing back furthers this idea that down deep she
likely wishes she had not resigned, and her statement about having to meet a
deadline may indicate her need for the structure and purpose she had while
working with us
the wrong turn may also suggest as this as well suggest her
involvement with the Virgin mayor was a mistake
the dream transcends into a rope ladder that is falling to
pieces beneath her as she tries to make her way back to the boss's office as
people complain how it sucks to work here. reflecting her connectivity to our
male owner but also to the office gossips who generally have nothing good to
say about working conditions here even though she has not worked here in 2
years
the wrinkled copy and her fear of being unacceptable raises
her basic fear of inadequacy, of not being good enough as she pointed out in
her resignation poem a year ago
the dream raises yet another question about how much she is
being asked to do to keep this job, implying a lot about how she may have been
exploited talent-wise as well as other ways
“I am letting myself be taken advantage of,” she writes. “But
I have to do this.”
and has she suspected and predicted the bridge starts to
fall apart beneath her as she tries to cross, perhaps indicating the frayed
connection she has to our office and our owner and her desperation to rebuild
it, tying together the strands of the former relationship (the image of her
grabbing onto the remaining stable ropes with her legs is an extremely sexual
one) but only to watch even these ropes disappear and she needs to grab the
remaining strands before she plunges down three stories -- perhaps reflecting
the office with the owner's office on the third floor or a rooftop retreat
where she lives
the dream suggests a wish she could return although the
intense difficulty she would encounter if she tried to retie Old connections
and though she would likely succeed it would involve intense struggle and might
not be worth the effort, partly because she was used and abused while working
at our office and she would have to return to the extreme measures she had to
take to keep the job in the first place
this wish fulfillment dream also flies in the face of
personal history in the past when she abandoned an adventure she never went
back and I suspect even as desperate as she seems to be to reestablish herself
she will be seeking some new venue, forging new bridges that won't fail as she tries to
cross them
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