she needs a new place to land and the dream essay she posted suggest a real desire conscious or unconscious to return to a place where she still maintains control over some of the players
she had real power on
the on our paper that she lacked elsewhere and this has to gnaw at her for
several reasons, partly because she got forced out and partly because she won't
get any serious money no matter how involved she is with our owner.
This essay takes a slight step back from the previous essay
in which she said she was forced by low wages and long hours to do unethical
things where she has in this essay speaks of being taken advantage again
Did I say slight change?
it is almost a total reversal from aggressor to victim.
While covering the same landscape this and the previous essay implies that our
owner is the core of this though the Greek chorus of people claiming the paper
sucks appears to be the gossip, our former temporary boss and possibly one of
the salespeople
the stable and unstable rope seem to imply that one of these
people on the paper failed her, forcing her to cling to the one stable person
with her legs and even this began to vanish through the “hole” as she clung to
the frayed ends, desperate trying to tie them together again and for the first
time in her life managed she managed to save herself while the Greek chorus
called her brave and express confidence in her
but there's a price for this ability and the stable rope
also requires her to be taken advantage of and do unethical things
This dream comes on the anniversary which she called “ugly.”
Whether this has to do with me (it’s the second anniversary of our brief
union) or more likely the serious falling out she had with that married man a
year ago.
the event is so
specific it can't have anything to do with me and it might will hearken back to
some previous event such as her breakup with the chef or her husband or maybe
even the rape that she claimed changed her life and possibly even the suicide
of her student she had taught as a tutor but that occurred over the summer
nonetheless her mentioning it here has a message to someone,
a reminder of some catastrophe and how much a victim she was that it requires
her new hearing session at the clinic just to help her get through the memory
of it.
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