ga the hometown blogger taught me how to disguise my tracker
this may explain why my website got hits from the virgin mayors town yesterday
I can't absolutely say that it's the poet but it could
possibly be others still seeking dirt by digging through my old pages which I
have posted over the years an old concept that I would incriminate myself in
any manner they could use
ga claims I am so upfront about everything that they find it
difficult to use anything against me
this time whoever it was looked into my posting about my
days at cosmetic Plus something I posted after hearing about my managers death
a few years ago
whoever it was did not stay long yet the visit suggested
continued interest and none to my advantage
maybe our poet feels deprived of the future she could have
had at our office a career supported by the owner and by our former temporary
boss
this of course is folly because unfortunately she brings
down her own seeds of destruction to each and every situation, something made
very obvious when you look back at her history with the exception of the band
almost nothing lasted more than a year.
this leads me to
wonder just how much longer she will be able to survive her current gig since
this month marks her one anniversary there
I can't tell what plans she's making to move on although our
former temporary boss celebration of the North county art scene suggests that
she may be involved with that and she may hope to revive her career as a
performer though she noted at one point she had lost something in her voice due
to smoking, drinking and other bad habits similar to what happened to my best
friend Hank at her age
I need to lay even lower than I have in the past to make no
reference at work or beyond my most private circles I sense a critical time
coming in which I should have no part letting what happens happen on its own
all the people
involved with this over the last 2 years seemed broken and incomplete and those
who survive this have to somehow rebuild our lives
as a result some like our former temporary boss will linger
in limbo forever, caught up in what could have been instead of what will be and
the more I think about it the more I see him as influencing our poet, his needs
feeding hers, allowing her to use him this may be true of all of us at this
office and beyond who she has touched over the years
the problem is most of us want to be touched by her and most
of us want to be used by her and we still relish the taste of what it's like to
be part of her life
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