He said I walk with God. But I don't think so, my old professor from college once telling me hell is not fire and brimstone, rather the absence of God in our lives, to spend eternity we may never look on His face again
And this is how I feel now, excluded, isolated, left out of her attentions, knowing that for all the mortal sins I have committed, I have been banished from her life, and I walk, not in the presence of God, walk in the shadow of what might have been, due to my old folly, will never be, hell being what is not and what cannot, and I feel its lac king everyday and night, a ghostly presence in a world in which I do not belong, envying those who by the grace of God still have her favor.
This is what hell is after all.
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