Saturday, May 7, 2022

A bitter draught May 28, 2012

 

Of the three of four poems she posted this weekend, this is the most intense and the most personal, thick with multiple meanings and allusions, all of which I don’t pretend to comprehend.

The poem on one level appears to reflect the struggle by the poet to retain her indemnity and perhaps her tender feelings amid rising temperatures that slowly evaporate them.

The assumption from the poem’s title is that she has reached a point where what once was no longer exist, a gradual process in which she has nothing left.

Boiling point is that point in which a liquid begins to turn into vapor, often, depending on the substance, what remains is a gradually thickening substance that she in this poem compares to syrup.

In this case, the metaphor is saying what once was is soon to be gone as the level of the drink grows lower.

Although I can’t be certain, I suspect this metaphor has two meanings, first one that may be what was once a promising relationship going up in steam, but perhaps more fundamentally, a loss of identity. A part of herself is lost in this transubstantiation.

She uses the word “accent,” which implies the rising steam, but also an altered condition, of vapors rising taking some of the essence with it, leaving behind the imperfections.

As the liquid shrinks and gets thicker, it gets slower to move, turning to “glue” as she describes it in her opening line. In a clever metaphor, she compares it to a “drawl” and alludes to Southern culture that grows slower because of the intense heat, in this case, “too hot for soul.”

Too hot to handle, and heavy with a stench (suggesting how spoiled love or whatever had become as a result of the process.) It is too hot to move or think.

Again, there is a duality going on in the poem, first this is a draught being slowly boiled down, and at the same time, something else, perhaps a sense hope, a drink “that would quench you” consumed quickly, not as originally intended – partly because it has become a bitter brew rather than the cool drink first assumed.

It is a bitter sultry brew that must be consumed quickly or not at all.

Love turned sour, perhaps, because of the heat causing it to turn into vapor and vanish. The residue left behind has stench, again a sense of a duality here, as the poet personalizes this to “stench of yourself.”

This does not appear to be attack on someone else, but on herself, perhaps a resentment at what might have been implied about her, but also suggesting that something stinks which at one time might have been sweet.

Again, there is a duality here, the metaphor of the slowly thickening bitter brew and the poet, as if she is the liquid struggling against the inevitable. On one hand, the liquid is love or once good feelings boiling out and leaving a rancid thick puddy behind, a sense of wretchedness that is has become so thick she doesn’t understand how it can continue to “flow,” yet as the poem says, “keeps the flow, but low, lower, and still somehow flows.”

Despite the intense heat (conflict, emotions, hostility?) the essence still flows but is eventually gone, leaving behind a memory of something that might have been, something good or cool, Eventually, all that remains is a scent, a hint of what she thought she had been.

The poem essentially says something good as boiled away, and with it an essential part of herself, who she was, or what she hoped to be.

This is an extremely complicated poem to interpret, and I’ve made assumptions that may or may not be accurate. These are the kind of poems that take years of study to more fully comprehend, and even then, may not get completely right.

But it is clear from the basic metaphor that she has reached the boiling point, which had caused a change, ruining what might have been good, and causing her to lose something valuable in herself.

 

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