How close she is to reinventing herself, I can’t say.
But as she has pointed out previously, she becomes what
other people want her to be, and so any reinvention will likely require someone
else to come into her life.
In some ways, this is how she controls the situation, a kind
of Zen where she goes with the flow, even at the expense of losing who she
really is.
But this didn’t always work in complex situations where there
were multiple personalities involved, inside our office, as well as on the
political beat beyond, since each of us had different expectations, and she
must have suffered a kind of insanity trying to meet those expectations.
Outside the paper, I suspect she ran into other issues such
as with the neighboring mayor some believe she got involved with for a short
time only to have her cast her aside – he was a notorious womanizer, and used
and abused women. She may have decided to get even with him using our
publication.
He trusted me just enough to imply that whatever went on
between the two of them went beyond his political war with the state senator,
although she may have taken sides with the senator as part of her revenge – or
may have been a mole for the state senator all along but failed to accomplish
her mission. (I have no evidence to back this last paragraph’s conclusions
other that speculation of others, who may know as little as I do).
Whatever happened in our office or in the pollical sphere
beyond appears to be over except for Joey D’s efforts to get her a government
job in the Peninsula City – which I suspect will go nowhere.
She has to start from scratch, and her effort to recover
from her eating disorder appears to be a positive sign.
Since she can’t go back, she must go forward, and
reinvention is a huge part of that process.
I just hope she doesn’t fall into the old patterns once she
moves on, giving her a chance perhaps to reveal her real self and perhaps find
someone who can love her for what she is, not what we all want her to be.
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