From her poems, there is no way to tell who is the subject
of her intense regret, someone who has become – at least for the moment – the love
of her life.
Yet, it becomes clear just how much pain she is in, a combination
of love lost and the diagnosis of cancer, on top of which, and not to be
ignored threat that she might lost her job if the Virgin mayor fails in court.
It is no wonder she wakes up early each morning in a panic.
While her announcement of her cancer came on the same
weekend as the one announced by our former temporary boss, she apparently struggled
with questionable medical tests for several years, the angle of death hovering
over here along with all the other troubles she’s had.
On top of all this, she must feel really guilty about the possibility
she might have given our former temporary boss his disease, with the potential
to have it destroy his marriage (although he is clever enough to lay blame on
some other woman from long ago – while she remarkably has been very careful
even with her most recent lover not to destroy other people’s lives – even mine,
something she threatened but also seemed to hold back on in my case).
From her poem, I can’t even tell if the man causing her the
most heart break is the same man from all the people she’s posted since the start
of the year. I am simply assuming as much, since it is in improbable for her to
feel this level of intense love for more than one man in such a short time
frame. I can’t even rule out RR as the subject of this romance, though I
suspect not, though clearly the man she loves id growing more distant and she
more frustrated by his lack of or lessening of attention. In her most recent
poems, she deals with the idea that she might let the whole thing go, let the
night breeze or sea waves take this love from her so she can feel free again,
though still forced to deal with her jar and her growing sense of morality.
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