None of this can be about me – although her posting and other internet moves seem to indicate that I am somehow involved.
For instance, she deleted all of her likes, comments and personal uploaded videos of her brother, mother and friend from high school from the YouTube account to which I am subscribed.
This may simply be coincidence since it is clear that she is in the middle of a romantic falling out with someone, most likely RR, in which she has an ongoing exchange – or at least, I hope so.
Yesterday morning, she posted an image that says, “I’m sorry if you don’t like my honesty, but to be fair, I don’t like your lies.”
Again, this may well be a pattern of her life, always engaging in the same conversation with people, but part of my conversation with her involved her telling me things about her other romantic and sexual engagements, and something I asked about with our former temporary boss.
But since she tends not share information in that way, this probably has to do with her ongoing dispute, again most likely RR.
A short time later, she posted “shut up,” receiving responses from several people including Barbara, a mutual friend and a guy named John, who gave a nifty quote: "You have not converted a man because you have silenced him." -
“No but at least I don't gotta listen to him,” she responded.
Later in the day, she posted again, “I don't need no man. I got two cats, popcorn, and a Netflix Cosmos marathon. Thanks, Carl.”
To which her mother responded, “Billions and billions of kernels of popcorn?”
Early this morning, she posted again continuing her accounting of what she is grateful for, in particular fully appreciating people she loves.
Again, I assume all of this has nothing to do with me, although I posted a number of poems, videos and poems on my own site during the same period when she was making these remarks, and believe she checked on some of them at one point over the day or night.
None of what I posted had anything to do with her, so if she is commenting about me, then she’s doing so largely in a vacuum, and I assume she really is engaged in her own battle with someone else – although I mistakenly assumed this last summer after another long stretch of silence between us.
Several things bother me in all this. First, her stripping of her YouTube site of personal data, leaving up her music, which she knows I sometimes look at. She did not remove anything from her other YouTube account to which I am not subscribed.
Second, I am still puzzled as to why she went public with her Facebook account after closing to public view in January – again, most likely to send messages to RR or whomever she is currently conflicted with.
Third, she just started a Google + account.
This last is the most disturbing since I just started using my own to repost items from my blog and other sites.
I deliberately checked to see if she had an account before I started, and she did not have one. Suddenly after a few days of my posting, she suddenly activates an account, using the same photo she newly posted to the YouTube account to which I am subscribed, and the photo she used during that interim when she shut down public access to her Facebook.
Perhaps, she created the account in order to keep track of what I am posting and to make sure I don’t post anything she doesn’t like. Perhaps it is a trap again designed to somehow flush me out of hiding. Perhaps she really does intend to come back to our company now that she knows that A is leaving?
Who knows?
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