Word is on the street that she’s been making calls around the county looking for dirt on the Virgin Mayor’s political enemies.
And it may not be RR that’s pulling her strings – or at least not him alone.
You have to wonder if maybe she feels a little trapped. I always got the feeling that she uses her poetry to say things she can’t otherwise openly say even to herself, perhaps assuming that those like RR and perhaps the others wouldn’t catch on.
Perhaps she assumes that some people might be clever enough to read between the lines of her poetry, even someone she has come to hate such as me.
How she came to be where she is at this point and who she is answerable to remains a mystery to me.
I’m not sure which side she is on, paid by the same people who pay the Private Eye to keep tabs on the Virgin Mayor perhaps? Or is she as loyal to him as she claims – with the brief blip on the radar when she sided with RR against the Virgin Mayor.
Or is she completely out of her league politically, and is simply treading water until she finds somewhere else to land?
I don’t even trust the Small Man, who was instrumental in forcing her to resign from our company.
In a political landscape where the Virgin Mayor is largely on his own, even the Small Man seems devious, and his intentions suspect.
I thought he was being kind to her by allowing her to resign and not tell the owners what she was up to.
But now I’m uncertain and wonder what else got discussed in that conversation besides him asking her to do the right thing.
She is now part of a pack of wolves that are loyal to the Virgin Mayor as long as they can get what they want using his name.
Do they control her or is she still a relatively free agent, buying time until she can find a gig without all of the handlers?
Is she still tied to RR as she was early in September, and is he still plotting against the Virgin Mayor while pretending to be his friend?
I am struck by several conflicting images of her from over the last year, all of them bearing one common element – that she is isolated, especially now, even though she is part of that crowd.
The only people she seems to completely trust are members of her family, and seems closest to her brother, even though she is jealous about how he makes his money.
So, we come back to this idea of communication, and how she seems to use her poetry to say things she can’t say outright. I’m struck by some of the contradictions over the summer, between her public hostility towards me, and yet some poems that seem to offer more sympathetic advice, such as the quick sand poem and the one about compassion, and other poems she’s posted like the one about trickling up, she later took down possibly because it seemed to admit something she didn’t want exposed, even with the tag line of “get it?”
I don’t know what all of it means.
Perhaps her poetry is a call for help, a message in bottle, something she is casting out into the waves for anybody clever enough to get, needing someone to understand things she can’t overtly say in a world where people use the least weakness as a weapon against you.
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