Pump up the volume

 The pills the doc gave me after the surgery never really worked, these low dose medicine designed to keep me aroused and yet did nothing,

When I really wanted something, even if I could not do anything with anybody after the result ,

I just want to see if I could still get it up like that when I think of her, 

The way I got it up sometimes like I did those nights whenit's still was possible to do something ,

So I started doubling the dose and felt the tingles there  if not quite a balloon , more so what I looked that old photos, not the nude ones but the ones in when she was going out and I imagined her being with someone else ,

It's hard to feel like a cuckold with nothing else is possible,

So i increased the dose again, just to see what would happen, just to see if the tingling amounted to more than just a twitch,

And I felt something more, growing inside and outside me, and finally I had it, more for medicin recommended, and more of a tingle that turned into something much better and themore I coveted her photos, the more intense it became until I pumped up the volume pointlessly, alone and yet somehow satisfactory