The mystery of her suddenly establishing an art’s page may have resolved itself, and to my relief it may have nothing to do with our company’s owner and an alleged plot to bring her back as the company photographer.
She was recently thanked for “wonderful day and night” by a husband-and-wife design team from the town where she works, an Arab couple, the wife of whom appears to be the one thanking her – though it is difficult to tell with so little real information.
Did this encounter with the wife or husband or both inspire her to dig out her old art projects and put them on display, a possible backdoor out of her current situation?
Maybe this will evolve into a new career (and if history is an indication), a new romantic entanglement, since she seems unable to separate the two.
Yesterday, she posted a new poem and a new video on her public Facebook page, and since she has not yet cut off access to me from it, it is difficult to know if she meant for me to see it or has long moved on and doesn’t really care who sees it or not.
At some point, she may shut the whole thing down, as she has previous poetry pages, or no longer find public announcements of her art useful any longer.
The poem is a long one, yet not as cryptic as some of her previous poems have been, an extended metaphor about her ache for success.
The video is much more curious and appears to be centered on the church bells that are ringing from the church next door to her building, a kind of extended selfie, as she holds the camera so she can film herself as she makes her way through her apartment, starting in the living room and eventually ending up in the kitchen and the open window where she sometimes sits smoking, only in this case, she pans out at the church, then back to her face. She looks forlorn as she weaves her hair with her fingers.
In the past, she posted photos of herself as a kind of self-promotion, very suggestive – especially her eyes, or pictures of her angry, but always images of herself in control, the queen who is always looking into the magic mirror asking who is the fairest in the land (an attempt I suppose to hide her insecurity, knowing she is beautiful, yet not always convinced other people think so.)
This video shows her in distress, supporting some of the things she’s hinted at in her Facebook and poetry posts, a new kind of self portrait that portrays her uncertainty.
I’m not sure what it means, if anything at all, or if she is trying to provoke a reaction in someone, she knows will be looking at the video.
It is difficult not to react when looking at her images – something she is well aware of.
Yet what is the point in her portraying herself in distress?
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