if this is but a dream (scanned notebook)

If this is but a dream
why can't I dream it
in this heart so hard
that it would be deny me sport
that exists only in my mind
or the real love
that can never be made real
the real feel no one can feel
but in such a state of dream,
and just because I feel
does not mean the other must
feel it, too,
if but a dream
then it is best a dream of sweetness
I must dream or perish.