She gets mad each time
I unfriend her on social media, 
and I'm too scared to explain why.
Morning and night, 
night and morning,
 I keep seeing her
face on my smart phone,
 pictures she send to
me via text, 
or on social media, 
her deep gaze swallowing me whole 
each time I turn on my computer.
I am drowning in those eyes,
 yet unable to sink or
swim,
 a lost soul without
lifeboat or life jacket,
the best I can do to keep afloat
 is to close my eyes
and pretend
 this is not
happening, 
only when I open my eyes again
 all I see is her
face, 
and can't explain the ache it causes me
how little control where I am 
and what I am doing, 
so, I shut off the spigot, 
stop the flow of photos 
that I am chin deep in already
 unable to explain to
her why.

 
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