Although I have not caught our owner snooping into my
computers recently, I still believe he is trying to pin me down -- as is our
former temporary boss -- to see just who I am talking to
whether it is GA the infamous Hoboken blogger or what I
might be posting about our poet
I am not stupid even at those times when I'm in a deep fog
I have been around technology since the 1980s and know
enough to distrust it
Although you can't always control the electronic trail you
leave you can minimize what information there is
Anything sensitive anything about our poet for instance is
handwritten.
As far as my communications with ga they are very limited
and not electronic.
the few phone calls I have are done on the cell phone
outside the office never using the office phone never using email and never
posting anything online that might be used against me
this said I have made a few mistakes such as that idiotic
move of posting her rooftop photo and worse my ignorance in posting the photo
from her former job and upstate New York with I had not intended
almost all of my poetry and journal stuff about her
including this are hand written and in many cases thought out while driving to
and from the auxiliary office stopping to jot down in my notebook at traffic
lights or if there is a particular moment of inspiration (ha ha) I pull over to
the curb
these pages have become a kind of therapy for me jotting
down my feelings and what I think is going on even when I later fine that what
I first thought was an error
in truth I know very little even after more than a year of
reading poetry and such and so these pages become a kind of exploration into
what I don't know
that said the owner and our former temporary laws are
apparently still on the hunt for clues that do not exist in any computer or on
the Internet and if they check out my blog it is full of innuendo but very
little information
I'm even wary of our poet and what she might read into some
of my more legitimate poems and so I post old poems sometimes or completely go
off subject just to make it clear that there are other writing going on besides
about her
but in truth she is fascinating and perhaps the most
fascinating person I have met since Peggy back in the late 1980s and her poetry
and music is so intriguing, I can't resist it's like peanuts once you've had
one you keep wanting for more
of course, a former temporary boss is so heavy handed in his
exploration of where I am or what I'm doing I almost find it funny a kind of
sideshow that keeps me entertained even though it is extremely risky playing
games with him he has an agenda which it's nothing to do with work but probably
everything to do with our poet
again, this is a supposition and I have no actual fact of
what his motives are or even my owners and so I just play this cat and mouse
game with everybody trying to stay under the radar in order not to be
intimidated or worse fired.
everything of course is twisted up into local politics so
the fact that the owners motives may have nothing to do with her even when I
suspect they might and he needs to support a winning side in hometown in order
to keep his ad revenues up and so any perception that I am somehow working with
his political enemies makes me dangerous and vulnerable when in fact I am
working for no One
unfortunately, I am a curious cat and all curious cats tend
to get themselves in trouble curiosity dragging them into the mix this is
always been my curse and it is my curiosity about her the poet that dragged me
into the middle of this besides other factors such as my own basic motions my
age and other things
but truth be told and despite what my owner and our former
temporary boss may think I have kept my distance deliberately maybe a clever
and elusive as one of her poems put it but remote and despite the fact that I
suspect she thinks I'm still there in the mix I'm not everything has to be from
a distance and always will be
this is not to say that I don't look forward to each of her
new posting and well over them when they come out I do and though I
infrequently check her Facebook page I do from time to time a kind of progress
report to see where things are at but that's the limit and whatever the owner
thinks or are temporary boss that's the my rules of engagement
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