Blink

I blink and it’s gone

That will to exist

In a world so savage

My feet ache from

Walking over hot coals

Rituals of endurance

Tests of strength,

Of character,

Of will,

With me failing

As often as

I succeed

Why does all this

Have to be so

complicated?

Why can’t love

ever be enough?

Why do I always

blink when the world

seems brightest?

Why do I always want

What I least deserve,

Not just because I

Can’t get it

But how little I’ve done

To earn it,

Trust, unquestioning loyalty,

Me blinking when

I should nod,

More hot coals

To stumble over,

Not enough will

To carry on,

Not enough character

To paint me as

A proper villain

Let alone a hero,

Why do I always blink

When I don’t mean to?